IMO, it's about redirecting your will. Right now you're doing what you've always done when you start to feel. A few simple perceptions/philosophies that have helped me are "Where the body goes, the mind follows.", "I'm a chameleon.", and "To change how I think and feel, I first need to change my actions, not the other way around."

When I got and kept my body in safe, sober environments around other recovering/recovered drunks, my mind (attitude) started to change and take on the solution oriented perspective of those around me. Then, once I started doing the recovery type things the other people were doing, I started to think and feel better.

Then, when I was struggling, I didn't have to reach for the bottle, and instead could call other people who understood, could go to safe places, and could take appropriate actions which included reading, writing, and simply focusing on doing the next right thing and doing whatever that was.

I needed to be brain washed to a degree, as my brain needed washing. My way of thinking and doing clearly wasn't working for me. So I adopted the ways of others who were successfully staying sober.

I hope you can too.