Have you ever looked at the sky and just felt this overwhelming sense of dissociation? It's like the sky reminds me of where I am in the universe and the unimaginably large amount of interactions that are happening in order for me to even exist.

Who knows what will set it off... Thinking about a chemical reaction, quantum physics, consciousness? These things used to ignite a strong dissociation in me and sometimes still do to a lesser extent. It is an extremely uncomfortable and intense feeling. Sometimes when the feeling hits me, it's almost too much and I have to retreat to my room to calm down. The universe can seem like a big scary place...

I explained my problem to my friend a while back and he helped me immensely. In fact, I haven't had an extreme episode since the summer. He explained that I need to accept my place in the universe and just let it go. Relax and remind yourself, "I do exist and I am lucky because of this. I am alive and I will enjoy it."

Since, that discussion I've been working on "accepting my place" and it has helped a lot. I rarely get that uncomfortable, intense feeling and when I do I am able to calm myself pretty easily. It sounds like your case may be more severe than mine but, meditation and acceptance have helped me a lot. Maybe you will also benefit. Good luck brother.